Different things (a ranting post)

There’s always something special when things go differently, when its either your first time doing something, or just getting out of your rut. The lil surprise element behind it… that’s what makes life fun isn’t it (:

Getting out of bed today to run at macritchie was certainly not easy. At all. Crazy how it just feels in the morning that the bed and I are one and to seperate us is just like, morally wrong. That sorta thing.

But as much as I detest running, 5km in the reservoir really wasn’t that horrible. It does feel like a pretty good accomplishment, I don’t think I’ve ever ran 5km continously before. (Never really saw the need to actually)

Praise God (:

So I guess I’m happy with life. I mean, sure it does suck horribly sometimes here and there, but at least there’s still the knowing that there’s a joy in me that cannot be pushed down. Let the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, to the need to put a happy face on sorrow. They’ll be the ones who barely reach adulthood and are already exhausted with life.

And I don’t blame them. A life without God, is damn hard.

Nobody can truly understand what another person is feeling. Different paths of lives prevents that.We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn’t even know. And then everyone tries to fix everything, and when they can’t, they give up and just settle for whatever they can get. No one really actually choose mediocracy but so many settle for it.

God understands though. I mean, He’s the only one who really can anyway. The years He spent on this world, He had endured betrayal, lies, hunger, pain. And He’s death has just shown me that I deserve much more than jus anything. I deserve the best. It IS the death of God after all. The world run after what is temporary. They dream of dreams that eventually fade away.  The wood rots, walls crumble and well, people die. Nothing really lasts.

But my God does. He is the past present and my future. And my dreams are in His hands, which are way larger than mine.

It’s about the time in my life where new experiences are gonna come (OSIP!) and whether for better or worse, things are  gonna change. And I’m looking foward to it. Look to God and blessings will naturally hunt me down from behind. People can call me naive or ignorant, but it really doesn’t matter. Afterall, who’s the one smiling at the face of challenges knowing that her God behind her is way bigger than any of these problems.

That’s the question (: